Monday, September 27, 2010

The World Just Keeps Spinning

It's been a very long time since our last post.
I don't even know where to start...
Blake I are now an uncle and aunt, to sweet baby Briggs. I saw this outfit last week that said "My auntie is awesome" and I just had to buy it for him. He is so spoiled;)Rex's surgery went well and the cancer hasn't spread, but because it's esophageal cancer they want to do some more chemo just to be safe. He will start that process again soon and he isn't very thrilled.
Blake and I started school. I feel like we will be in school our whole life. I don't see the light at the end of the tunnel. We aren't even half away till X-mas break and I about have a nervous break down every other day.
The fact that I resigned as Cedar's Drill Team Coach just adds so much more. Yes, that's correct I quit. I had to stand up for myself. I wasn't going to be apart of something that was so wrong. I will not throw away my integrity. It drives me absolutely crazy that I can not stop thinking about it and I just picture myself sitting there at the table being bashed about for 3 hours! I found out that my blood pressure is high, and I know for a fact that it's because of that whole situation. I do believe that if I would have stayed, I would have had a heart attack.-I'm not being a drama queen- If you only knew what crap I put with you would understand. No one should EVER be treated the way I was. I don't think some people really understand what it means to be a Christian, and to treat others the way Christ would. It just blows my mind. I wish I could just take a pill that would erase my memory of the past 7 months. I knew it would tough, and I was up for the challenge, but I didn't think it would end up like this. I feel as if I am ruined. A person can only take so much emotionally and mentally. I don't really understand what Heavenly Fathers purpose was for me and why it all played out the way it did. I did learn what kind of parent I will never become and what kind of child I want to raise. I know that I am the way I am because of growing up in the south. I am grateful for my parents and raising me into such a respectful adult. I truly miss Texas, Utah just doesn't compare with the respect meter... It'll probably take me a long time to get over everything because just the stupid little things get to me. For example, we went to Delta to watch Hadley play football and their drill team performed and I started to cry. I pretty lucky to have support from other coaches, parents, friends, and of coarse my family. THANKS!
Bad noteS... The tanning salon that I work out it closing!
My last day is September 29.
I won't be done with school for another 2 1/2 years.
Which I am just so thrilled about! And puts off having kids...

I swear it's just one thing on top of another.