Have You Ever...

Have you ever gotten terrible news that it's so hard to even explain what comes over your body? I'm not talking about getting bad news that your car needs to be fixed for $900, nor that you find out that you bombed a test thinking that you are a failure in life.

Have you ever been so scared for the next few months to come and go knowing that things will never be the same?I'm not talking about being nervous for a new baby to come into this world, nor knowing where you are going to go graduate school.

Have you ever thought 'why now'? These next few months are suppose to be the most happiest time with Heavenly Father sending us a new life coming, but at the same time as a life may be going Home to Heavenly Father.

Have you ever thought 'wow, that General Conference talk applied directly to my family that it's kind of scary what we just heard'?

Have you ever noticed that whatever you are dealing with in your life, you hear that dreadful topic being sung about on the radio 24/7?

Have you ever had to sit back and watch people you care about be in so much pain knowing that there is nothing you can do for them?

Have you ever felt so helpless?

Have you ever wanted to be so selfish to tell someone you can't just quit now?

Have you ever felt guilty for being a brat growing up when they were only trying to be a father figure in your life?

What's better: Being able to prepare yourself for a tragedy of what may come or just wake up one day and tragedy hits you in the face? This is a toss up! I see the pros and cons of them both.

Pray for strength and courage for my sweet family.

I'm so grateful for Blake, my family, and Blake's family. I'm so glad to have the Church in my life and know that families can be together forever. Having a testimony of eternal life makes things a bit easier knowing life doesn't end here. There are no goodbyes, only see you later.

Love you Mom. Love you Rex, or should we call you Howard;)